Balance? I'm Over It.

I'm actually starting to think each passing year gets crazier and crazier. Life is going by faster and faster, and I just can't seem to hold onto my favorite moments quite hard enough.

As many of you know, I just finished my third year of college. Over the last year, I actually feel like I went through a semi-identity crisis.

Am I a blogger? Fashion? Lifestyle? Both?

Am I a writer? A poet? Would I even know it? (haha, see what I did there?)

Am I a photographer? 

How do I merge all of these things into one big ball of Mattea? Do I have to?

The stress was real, I tell ya. And honestly, that's why I hadn't been posting as frequently. It really did feel nice not having to worry about posting all the time or having the stress of instant gratification from a post. 

It was an honest to goodness break. And that's what I needed. 

Here I am! I'm back. And I spent a lot of time thinking. I thought about why I started creating in the first place. I love to share my thoughts with you. I find myself inspired by the creative world. And I want to collaborate more than anything with the other creatives around me.

I suppose that's why I'm over the idea of balance. I tried long and hard to achieve a balance of sorts over the past year. Life ebbs and flows, and our schedules do too. Some days are just going to be busier than others. Some days are going to be more fun than others. And some days are going to be more productive than others. 

I used to think I had everything figured out. I'm realizing that I was just peeling back a corner of who I really am. I'm a lot of different things, and I wear a bunch of different hats (haha, see what I did there again?). The great thing about being a creative of sorts, is that you really don't have to just wear one hat. You can do it all, or you can do some, or you can just do one thing. It's up to you. There's no printed rulebook. 

Set your own guidelines. 

And teeter. 

Because life does too. 

xx

photos by Christopher Dugas.